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last week, i was thinking a lot about legacy.
as i shook hands with some of the most important, influential, powerful, and wealthy people in ontario [or so i'm told] - the likes of the cardinal, successful lawyers, lobbyists, and real estate gurus; the premier himself served me beef, i engaged in deep conversations with the individuals that lead this province, and was in the presence of a former prime minister. and knowing the "importance" of all these people [but not really knowing as i had to look it up later on!] i wondered what my legacy will be.
when i am no longer around, what will people say about me? how will i be remembered?
if i was to have a wikipedia page myself, what would it say?
i wonder what people will really say, or think, about these people of power, influence, and wealth when they no longer hold their position or when they cease to be completely. were they kind to others? generous? self-seeking? rude? uncaring? sacrificial?
but what about the people that the "world" may never know about? the one's that don't get searched on google or written about in the newspaper or asked to serve beef at a reception?
so many people are stagnant. waiting, it seems, for some romantic ideal of the a future event or relationship or opportunity. wasting what could be precious, fun, challenging years by living frustrated in parents' basements, working boring minimum wage jobs (or not at all), and whining and wanting for a mate to come along.
the thing is, life doesn't happen when you reach or achieve that future event, relationship, or opportunity. life is happening now!
genuine contentedness is a process. often a journey of gratitude, conviction, and faith, among other things. but being stagnant, is not being content.
to be stagnant, is to be passive. and the last thing i want my legacy to imply is that i was passive.
i don't want periods of my life to go "undocumented", silently bringing to mind the time i could have productively and actively spent doing something that really mattered.
it doesn't take a job in politics to "matter"; it doesn't take a mission trip or a stint at an orphanage, a university degree or a blog with 1,000+ readers to matter. it just takes a little action and a whole lot of stepping out.
the thing is, i don't want to live a passive life; a life that apathetically shrugs at situations and circumstances, or looks to others more motivated than myself to bring about change or impact. even in seasons when i don't know what i'm doing or where i'm going or why i'm here, i still want to be moving, faithfully in any direction. we are not called to immobility but told to "go" [matthew 28:19, mark 5:19, john 8:11 ].
moses wasn't remembered because of all the stuff he could have done; all the things God blessed him with that he hesitantly used, or didn't at all. exodus doesn't chronicle all the time moses spent thinking about what his life was going to look like, dreaming about how he could serve God, or waiting for God to bring him into a season that seemed to matter more: married, a father, a labourer, a prince, etc.
instead moses' legacy is because of his willingness to move into God's plan. to wholeheartedly, intentionally live for God. moses stepped into the red sea expectant of God's provision and as a declaration of his willingness to actively move and live for God.
so often we spend our time playing on the shore, contemplating the waters. gingerly dipping our toes in but not wading in. soaking our feet until someone comes along to lead us through it, meanwhile the Lord has already gone first and calls us forward from the opposite shore.
i don't want a legacy of waiting. an undocumented period of time in my biography that suggests a stagnancy or immobility. i want a legacy that displays an active, passionate heart for people and for God; one that demonstrates an intentional, interesting and interested existence. a life marked by graditude, obedience, and faith, and culminating in an active contentedness and assurance of His sovereignty.
i want my legacy to be one of wading in the water. if i have to spend most of my life submerged, so be it. at least i'll be swimming and not just staring at the sea.
not well-traveled, not well-read; not well-to-do, or well-bred
i just want to hear instead "well done, good and faithful one"
i want to leave a legacy, how will they remember me?
did I choose to love? did I point to You enough?
to make a mark on things? i want to leave an offering
a child of mercy and grace who blessed Your name unapologetically
and leave that kind of legacy